My website re-creation night
Today, I brought back everything that once lived within me — my music, my YouTube, my singing, my riyaz, and most importantly, my website. My website always felt like a portfolio of my creative side that the world rarely gets to see.
For the past few days, I’ve been constantly pushing myself to reconnect with what I truly love. My IT job and day-to-day responsibilities will always continue, but music was the one thing I missed the most. I barely realized when I stopped doing music altogether. I uninstalled Instagram around eight months ago, and after that, I never went back to it. I stopped making cover song videos, and saying this with a heavy heart — I even stopped writing songs for a while. I paused my journaling too. In a nutshell, I stopped doing all the things that once made me excited about life and my dreams. Somewhere between constant workload and my inability to manage time for everything — food, work, household responsibilities, sleep, music, socializing, and so many other things — I slowly lost touch with myself.
I often think about the lost time and how much more I could have done for the things I’ve wanted all my life. But…
Thankfully, over the past few months, I started watching motivational and self-help videos on YouTube. I also began listening to the book “The Power of Your Subconscious Mind” almost every night before sleeping or while going for walks. All these learnings made me realize that focusing too much on results and constantly feeling overwhelmed will never take us anywhere in life. We have to learn how to relax our minds and trust that everything will eventually fall into place. You’ll find the right paths in life — you just have to stay open to whatever comes your way.
Over the last few months, I’ve faced many realistic situations that opened my eyes in ways I never expected — in friendships, relationships, career, marriage, music, creativity, and life overall. I’m grateful that so many truths revealed themselves naturally.
Today, I restarted my website.
This website had been closed for many months because I had stopped working on my creative side for a while, as I mentioned above. But writing all of this now, knowing that you guys are going to read it, makes me incredibly happy. Through all of this, one thing never changed — you guys. You always waited for me, for my next video, my next blog, and every little thing I wanted to share. Even while I was away, I kept uploading cover songs on my YouTube channel from time to time.
I still can’t believe that people who started following me years ago are still here supporting me today. I truly can’t thank you enough for that. And if God wills, maybe someday we’ll meet in real life, and I’ll sing countless songs for you all. (A little dream of mine.)
It’s 4:30 AM right now, and I’ve been producing two songs — this time with more energy, more confidence, and most importantly, more trust. It’s all for you guys. These two songs are about my home and my place as a good friend in someone’s life. Very soon, I’ll finally share them with you.
Again — I CAN’T WAIT TO SHOW YOU ALL THE CREATIVE THINGS I’VE BEEN WORKING ON.
A final note: Just be who you truly are. Never change yourself to fit someone else’s expectations. Understand yourself deeply before trying to understand someone else.
— Love, Isha Goel